This is pretty much a random rant about almost everything that happened while i was on DA. In it you will find why i don't do anything anymore, and pretty much why half the stuff i did on DA ended up being what i did. I'm not gonna tag anybody in here because most people remember Byakuga100 and not ProjecL, and because i don't want to bother anybody.
The PMD comic section isn't really ranty, until you get to the first negative impression i make.
I have no idea why i'm even writing this, perhaps boredom, perhaps so people that visit my profile and like my fanfic can see what's going. Whoever those people are, because as far as i know, only 1 person actually reads it.
That brings me to the first point. Writing can be tedious, and you have prof read it for all grammar errors. Writing something good can take quite some time and if nobody is going to read it, i'm not even gonna bother. I found prof reading the more interesting chapters to be somewhat fun, because in some Chapters even i was surprised how interesting they turned out, but i could easily just imagine them in my head without needing to write and prof read heavy plot chapters where nothing happens like Chapter 1 and the not written Chapters 9 and 10(main reason i didn't bother actually) when nobody is gonna read them.
I guess the reason nobody reads them is because i'm not part of a group, or read other Digimon fanfics. I don't read other fanfics mostly because i either don't like the story(or it's too slow), many fanfics are dead, or because they are unformated. I'm not really the one to talk about unformated text, because mine isn't formated that good either, but i'm not gonna read a big wall of text which is hard to keep track of and you never know if the scenario even changed.
As for not being in groups... I had enough friends on DA randomly turn into dead accounts, and i really don't want more because thinking of them makes me wish i could time travel back to 2011, and to some extent makes me compare my life back to how good it was in 2010-2013(which is a huge difference).
The second topic i like to
talk rant about is that i have no inspiration or motivation anymore to either write or make a comic. The reason i joined DA back in 2010 or 2011(not sure) is because i was inspired by Neo Digimon Adventure webcomic to make my own Digimon comic on DA. I must say having the original creator of the webcomic comment on my comic felt awesome. However the comic fell apart(the 3 pages that it had) because of my terrible planning. Before i actually finished planning the story few months after page 3 was posted, the BlackGuilmon that was the good guy, was turned into an anti-hero that today i like to call "Project Leviamon"(or Project L or L for short). I had some ideas to make up for my lack of planning, but my motivation dropped completely because the Neo Digimon Adventure webcomic was canceled(though it was posted before i even started working on it, i never bothered to read the "blog" on top of the page).
Not long after, i saw 2 PMD comics on Deviantart. The first one was cusackanne's comic named "Team Destiny" and despite the pages coming out at the slow pace, i still followed the comic because the story was really interesting, and every page made me want to know what happens in the next one. She plans on redoing it in an actual drawn comic style, and while i prefer the PMD style, i don't have a problem with that. It allows more freedom and if you are a good drawer, the pages are easier to make than putting pixels in the precise same spot as the previous panels because a character isn't moving. If i could draw anything decent(except Deoxys) i would probably make something in that format too.
The protagonists of my PMD story were Bya the Treecko(short for Byakuga, i really liked the Treecko line back then) and Max the Charmander(short for Maxulus, he and i picked Charmander together). Maxulus was a really good friend of mine that i meet on a Pokemon RP forum. The PMD comic i made was based on a RP we made on the forum, but because the forum merged with another forum, it got interrupted near the beginning. Me and Maxulus mainly communicated with Chatango, which needed you to have a tab of it open at all times. We mostly lost contact of each other because of our real life problems, and i wish we knew of something like Skype earlier(there was Messenger but it's REALLY easy to hack it). I still tried to continue the comic after losing contact, but it didn't feel the same. It's what dropped my motivation to make a comic for the second time.
The comic regained some hope after i saw blueraichu's comic. Her comic was absolutely hilarious, and it inspired a lot of people to make their own PMD comics. After reading a few PMD comics that were inspired by bluraichu's comic, which were all extremely funny. I started to regret having my comic have such a serious story, so i started twisting it to funnier sides. I stopped making my comic for a while cause i wanted to think about the characters and their backstory more. Luckily a lot of people accepted character requests for their comics, and of course i requested my own characters, most of which have now became my trademark Pokemon OC's(most notably Psyliph who i requested the most, but others include Proto and Pepo, and that's as far as i can remember). I already had a solid idea for most of them, but i wanted to see what others would do with them too.
When the group comic idea came out, i was really hyped. It was a really cool and unique idea (everybody makes 1 page in order, and everybody has a Pokemon OC that appears in it). I originally requested Omega the Umbreon, but for whatever dumb reason decided to replace him with Spirit the Spiritomb, who was really overpowered and i'm surprised he even got accepted, despite the fact that i had to tone down his power a little. If the group comic actually happened, i would have really regret using Spirit instead of Omega. Spirit is the main villain of the first PMD comic i made, he had no backstory, he was evil just cause, and i really can't imagine him being in a guild that helps other Pokemon.
Blueraichu had her account randomly deactivated for quite some time. This didn't bother me that much because there were a lot of comics to draw my inspiration from, even though i kinda missed and still miss all her comic pages. My motivation to continue making my comic dropped when everybody stopped making comics because she left. She returned with a new account half a year later, but vanished few months later, and to this day(almost 2 years passed) she still hasn't returned. Most people started moving their accounts and stopped making PMD comics, there are only like 3 people that use their old account (even if some don't do anything on them). I deactivated my old account and made a new one because i wanted a new name, and it really didn't matter because most of my friends were gone already. The group comic never happened, which is a shame because it was the only comic i would bother making at that point.
After about a year i decided to do another PMD comic called "Pepo's Adventures". I wanted to make a funny comic that still had a good plot. But the very first page i made(the prologue) ruined it because it was too dark (implied racism and death of the Turtwig species). I could easily erase the prologue and just do it from Page 1, but that never really happened because i lost interest in making comics and started writing a Digimon fanfic. You already heard the whole rant about it at the top and i'm not going to repeat it. Another reason it never happened was because i wanted to do a game out of it, and Pokemon Essentials, an engine for Rpg Maker XP had everything i needed for it (except the PMD dungeon system, but that doesn't matter).
And that pretty much concludes the mostly rant journal. I spent 2 hours and a half writing it out in the most understandable way possible, though i don't really think anybody will read more than one paragraph, or even start reading.
It pretty much sums up what i did on DA, why i haven't done anything, any why i don't really want to make friends anymore.
While nothing from Digimon CE affected me in any way(since it literally did nothing), the whole PMD comic thing(and Maxulus) made me scared to make good friends because i lost so many good ones, and it all happened so quickly and completely caught me off guard. The only good friends i made since then were Recee and Vuk, this was mostly because we all shared the same interest, which was Digimon, and Digimon is my favorite everything (well not literally). I haven't had a good chat with either of them for a while, but at least we are still in contact with each other i guess.
I created this journal mostly cause i saw a deviation(it's in my favorites not hard to find) that reminded me of the whole PMD thing. I hope i didn't really direct hate on anybody in this whole rant, because if i did, i don't really mean it, i'm just upset how my life has changed for mostly worse since 3 years ago.
Listening to: SCAVA - Hollywood Undead
Reading: Ruby scripts
Watching: Computer Screen
Playing: Playtesting my game i guess